so i went to work today. i slaved away. i sat there, working for the man. i ate lunch. i came back from lunch. then in the mid afternoon…

i found out a guy i know killed himself. i had to find out in the coldest way possible, via aim. i'm not mad at guy for telling me, but i was quite shocked, and none of it seemed real at the time. my head was swimming. i was stuck in a rat box, trying to make sense of what was being told to me. i tried to remember the last time i saw him. amazingly enough, my antisocialism has kept me insulated to the fact this has happened. it happened exactly a week ago. and then i found out the hard part…

he killed himself in the exact manner, in the exact place that his girlfriend did a couple of years ago. i knew her from a long time ago. i used to work with her at a local bar and grill type restaurant. we were friendly. i thought she was cool.

and now they're both gone, wiped from the face of the earth by whatever forces motivate people to do things like this.

i don't think i have anything intelligent to say about this. i am completely at a loss.