"brian hall! thank you for playing 'chump of the year'! here's your lovely parting gift…a lump of coal!"

"now eat it, you fucking bastard."

so i'm operating on about two hours of sleep right now. i picked my cat (clyde. a girl. don't ask.) up from my dad's house on friday. my sister had been watching her until she recently moved out, so since then it's just been clyde and my dad. i've been waiting until matt and brax move out to go get her, mainly because with so many people around, i thought she might be a burden. she can tend to be a bit of a pest. now she has plenty of room to roam around in.

and now she won't shut the hell up about being home. if i leave for five minutes, she freaks the fuck out. god forbid i might fall asleep at some point.

as if i wasn't losing enough sleep, as it is.

i met this beautiful girl. the most amazing girl i could ever imagine existing, let alone getting to meet her. it was a completely chance meeting and it has continued to blow me away, every step along the way. the big pisser in this situation is that this girl doesn't want a serious relationship right now. i really can't articulate what this girl means to me. the time i've spent with her, up to this point, was like a dream. i'm not going to lie and say that the fact that she doesn't want a relationship with me doesn't hurt. i'm feeling the familiar pangs of everything going down the wrong path. i'm suffering my "doom vision." and this time…i want to drop those feelings to the side. leave them behind me. i want to look on meeting this girl as a good thing. maybe we can be together at some point. maybe this is just a temporary thing. but until then, we have to be to each other whatever we can be, whenever we can.

i have a house guest tomorrow…i need to clean that warzone up, for once…