i don't know why i'm so incredibly wound up, right now. i feel stressed beyond belief and i can't really put my finger on why. the odd thing is…i have an incredible amount of stressed out, nervous energy running through me…and i'm tired as hell. i almost fell asleep, here at work. crazy!

could it be the fact that my small stone still hasn't arrived? i sent an email to the guy and he said both pedals (i ordered the small clone at the same time) were shipped out at the same time, priority mail. well…we all know what kind of problems i've been having with the post office…. to the guy's credit, he said if i didn't get it by tonight, to let him know and he'd file an insurance claim and send me a new one out, immediately. sounds good, but i just want the damn pedal.

could it be that when i went home on lunch to see if the pedal arrived (it didn't), i found out that the phone had been mysteriously turned off? it seems jess must have forgotten to pay the phone bill. the funny thing about that is that the dsl line was working fine. weird.

i went out and found a payment center and took care of the phone bill on my lunch break that was rapidly approaching two hours in length. oh well. shit happens, right?

i just want to go on record and state that i just typoed "shit" as "she." i wonder what i'm thinking about…

so why am i so stressed out? why do i feel so off-center?

is it her? i don't think so. i feel better about that, over the past couple of days, than i have in a long while. i'm going to try to rule that one out, i think.

so what is it? possibly just a giant combination of all of the above? the fact that i'm still at work, working what seems like the longest day ever?

i need a fucking nap.