this is why iggy pop will forever be a god amongst men.

amen.

update: i have the keys. the car belongs to me. it is mine. i am now incredibly happy.

pedals: the guy hasn't emailed me to let me know they've been shipped, so there's nothing new on that front.

more later when i'm not so delirious.

i'm a hopeless addict. i use the need to break a $10 bill as an excuse to buy coffee. is there a light at the end of this tunnel? will i ever be free of this crazed frothing monkey on my back?

i sold a gorillaz promo on half.com, the other day. i got to the post office to send it out this morning. why is this important? well…it's officially the first thing i've ever sold via the internet. hooray for me, right? well…if you're interested, i have a gwenmars promo going cheap over there, as well…

i really need to stop saying "bollocks."

car update: the title is in and the transaction should be completed early tomorrow. what this means: i may be driving the new car tomorrow. please, people…wish me luck. i've been waiting for this thing forever, you know. now all i have to do is clean out the old one and sell the fucker…

it's official…i am the ebay terminator. i have scored two new guitar pedals (both electro-harmonix, both new) for well below list price. i blame guy and his cameras for my new ebay addiction. i can stop whenever i want to…

coffee gone…what am i to do now?

have you been keeping up with this Chandra Levy business? i was reading something on the foxnews site about it and it said this:

"Police have interviewed dozens of people in the case, some more than once, and have cast a wide investigative net. Their efforts include posting on their Web site simulated images of Levy ? last seen with long, curly brown hair ? with different hair styles in case she is wandering around with no idea who she is."

do they think she's been lobotomized? what kind of leads do they have that they're wondering if she even knows who she is? that sounds a bit odd, don't you think? "just in case she has amnesia or has been lobotomized…"

covering all the bases?

cops weird me out, i tell ya.

[am i ripping myself off if i stole this entire post from an email i wrote someone?]

another day, another mocha. i had a good morning today, waking up one minute before the alarm went off. i count this as a good thing because i like waking up on my own, rather than hearing that shrill beeping. a much better way to start the day, i say.

orange juice and getting acquainted with the new toothbrush. let me tell you about exciting…

i stopped off to grab a mocha, this morning, anticipating doughnuts when i got into work. well…my lead decided to take a vacation day, so there were no doughnuts in site. curses. foiled again.

best feature of the snatch dvd: pikey subtitles.

hopefully my dsl that doesn't work will be fixed on thursday. they're supposed to be sending a tech out…

it seems my battle against caffeine and soda has come to a crashing end. i haven't really stuck with it, at all, really. i've been drinking coke (although not nearly as much) and coffee, so i guess the battle was over before it really started. i have been drinking a lot more juice lately, though. i guess that's good. right?

someone stop me…this post sucks…

busy weekend of doing nothing. i ended up with a haircut on thursday, saw final fantasy last night, and got snatch on dvd today. all in all, a fairly uneventful eventuality.

the haircut speaks for itself. thursday also saw the dsl modem arriving and the mac got updated to os x.

ahhh…dsl. let's put it this way: i'm still using the dial-up. the modem they sent me locks my computer up every time i try to do anything more than talking on aim. and to think i was excited to see 3com on the box. i tried downloading new drivers, reinstalling the device time after time, cursing at it, and i even asked it nicely. still nothing. the son of a bitch just generally dislikes me.

on the plus side, the mac is working beautifully. i've even got the internet sharing up (granted we're sharing a 56k) and running between the two.

final fantasy was a thumbs up and a thumbs down, in my opinion. the animation was amazing, but the story was completely unintelligible, as per it's japanese roots. actually…it was intelligible. it just had a lot to do with spirits of the earth and all that hooey.

snatch on dvd, on the other hand…god i love that movie. watching it again reminds me of how brilliant brad pitt is in his role. i recommend the dvd. it's a 2 disc set with loads of extras.

other than that? not a damn thing. i've been sucked into gran turismo 3, lately, so honestly…i'm not getting out much.

sometimes you just stop and see how everything in your life has been whizzing by you at a million miles an hour. it seems like every situation that i'm even remotely involved in changes direction at least once every thirty seconds.

car update: i was supposed to drive away with the car on monday. the title didn't turn up and the banks were agreeing to disagree and then agree again (see that one post a couple of days ago…too lazy to link it). then we figured i'd be getting everything straight to be driving the car by thursday (tomorrow). well..the earliest i may get the car now is friday, with early next week looking more likely. curses.

i got gran turismo 3 last night when people from a couple of stores told me it didn't come out until today. yeah? you sure about that? who played it for hours last night, fuckstick? bitter? hell no…i have it and they didn't get my business. they also let me know that if they did have it in, all of their copies had already been reserved. elitist bastards.

girl situation: way too confusing and painful to discuss. let's just say that i'm glad that i have a new videogame to distract myself with.

plan for the weekend: do i ever have plans? i'm thinking of going to see the final fantasy movie, at some point. my original plan was to drive down to atlanta thursday in the new car (chuckle) and do some visiting. well…when that particular pile of doo doo hit the fan, i had to settle for…a movie. not quite a roadtrip, i tell ya.

harrison ford saved someone else. this time a kid. this time no one yacked in his chopper. someone give this guy $25 million to be in another indiana jones movie…quick!

this just in: jobs suck.

joycam project update: not done yet.

this just in: i'm lazy.

bleary-eyed morning at the house. clyde has an annoying habit of waking me up between 5 and 6am every morning, now. meowing, crying, and carrying on. it's insane. i wish i knew what her problem is. i sleepwalked through all those things you do on auto-pilot every morning, eventually finding myself in the car, stereo blaring, on the way to work.

i haven't been sleeping well, lately. i wish i knew how to talk about what's been bothering me, but my tongue gets all tripped up and i end up saying nothing. i swear, someday i'm gonna end up getting strangled by my heartstrings.

it's a miserable feeling to have someone just walk away from you. to have someone just give up on the situation and leave you cold. it's a miserable feeling to try calling and have them not answer, even when you know they're home. what can you really do? talk into their answering machine until you finally run out of steam? choking on every other word and then finally say "goodbye…please call me," and hope to god they will, even when you know they won't? it hurts to stare at the phone all night and watch it never ring.

and how do you feel when this person swears up and down that it doesn't have a damn thing to do with you? when they swear that you're an amazing person and they're the one that's screwed up? do you believe them, even though you've heard it a million times? why should you? it's all just that same false hope that you use to get through everything, right?

all i really have is questions, at this point. you'd think, as many times as i've been through this, i'd finally have some answers. i know that all i really have is a broken heart, and the shards are lodged in my throat.

okay…side note: my no soda plan bombed out around the end of the work day, yesterday. i bought an orange soda when presented with the choice between it and lipton sweetened brisk in a can. yeah…like i want sweet tea from a can. give me a frickin' break, people.

i did, somehow, remain caffeine free until today around 3pm when i had some coffee. now, since i broke my soda ban, i'm drinking a coke.

no willpower, i tell ya. i'm a softy. a weakling.

destined to keep failing…

this bank and car business is one of the biggest clusterfucks i've ever seen. now that i'm back from round one with the bank, maybe i can divulge a little of this info to you…

first off: never buy a car that someone is still paying off. that doesn't involve one bank…it involves two. dealing with one bank is hard enough, kids. so i go to the bank, ready to sign the paperwork and get it all squared away…ready to drive off in my new car. well…the bank won't issue the check until the title is transferred at the clerk's office. no problem, right? except the guy i'm buying the car from says that his lending company won't release their lien on the car until they're paid. well…my bank won't pay until they have the title transferred, with their lien on it. sound complicated? try being a know-nothing financial non-wizard like m'self and having this bank guy bounce all this off your head. then try looking back at that bank guy and seeing that he's confused. yeah. sounds on the up and up, i tell ya.

well…my bank decided they'd get ahold of his bank and they'd work out their differences like good money lending institutions.

end result? i should be driving my new car by thursday.

moral of the story? don't tell your grandmother to meet you for lunch in the middle of all of this. i still haven't found her.

new mp3 from the forthcoming hey mercedes record. hey bob…tell zach he has me to thank, chief.

the rest of my life? pure depressing hell. i'll spare you the details.