sebastian keeps name-dropping us over there at signal drench. you'd think we were friends or some shit. go read his rambling review of the new bluetip ep.

i hardly ever win a free coke. i think this game is rigged.

i sometimes think of this site being proportional to me being a monkey in a cage. i find it increasingly hard to not sit here in safety, throwing my own shit at you all. isn't that what anyone with a public forum does? they may go about it in newer, more interesting ways, but in the end, fecal matter is still flying. reality is governed, in the end, by opinion. i'm up against a wall. realizing that every move we make, every word we say (or type, as the case may be), is inevitably second-guessed and compared against others possible perception of us. this, i've unfortunately realized, holds true for myself as well as most everyone else. there is no such thing as "truth in media." everything that meets our eyes and ears has passed through someone else's opinion gland (read: asshole), ultimately removing all hopes of pure fact.

this rant was brought to you in part by my own bitter self-loathing. it's easy to dislike yourself. the hardest part is making a change…